December 8, 2009

• {would you pray with me}
  
  
  My grandpa was taken to the hospital last night with chest pains…
  they ran tests this morning and discovered every artery was blocked, except one -
  which was 70 % blocked!
  
  The doctors said he’s a walking time bomb – and are doing open heart surgery asap.
  
  I find it strange that several months back when he was taken to the er with the same thing they said no blockages were found… and I wonder, can someone have this severe of heart condition happen in a matter of months? Or was the medical system faulty?
  
  Makes my heart grow a bit anxious in other ways too~
  I was telling my mom this morning that dad needs to have his heart looked at, since heart conditions are hereditary.
  And actually, every person in my family and life I care about should go in for an exam.. or two .. or three.
  just to be sure!  I mean, really really sure they’re okay.
  
  I can see my Christmas gifts now, “Coupon: good for one free ride to doctor’s office to have your health checked.”
  
  But even in the midst of worry for Gramps I find myself smiling over my thought pattern –
  thinking I can somehow control things..
  thinking I can take measures and precautions to “guarantee” I’m secure, happy, and get what I want~
  which is, by the way, for my entire family to be raptured together and never have to face sickness or death.

  I’m reminded too with all this that people who seek control are nothing more than people led by fear.
  
  Sure, fear is an emotion that grips our hearts when we don’t know what the outcome of something will be -
  but I believe in the Sovereignty of God and that everything serves His purpose and plan.
  
  Our lives are in His hands.
  I believe that with all my heart.

  But even having said all that I would really appreciate your prayers ~
  That God would let us keep Gramps down here a bit more.
  
  He’s the only Grandpa I’ve known (never knew my mom’s dad).. and we’re very close.
  He’s exactly everything you’d imagine a grandpa should/ and would be. 

  I’d love for you to sit and hear his stories.
  They’re amazing.
  Like from another world…
  a world that’s mesmerized me since I was child and would hear him tell of it.  
  
  here’s a video I posted last year~ to give you a glimpse more of who he is.
  Gramps is talking about how he and his brothers got the same thing every year for Christmas – rubber boots.
  I love it when he says you could “smell them rubber boots…”
  and he knew his dad had bought them, and they would get so excited.

  My grandparents will be celebrating 63 of marriage next week too – the 18th!
  They were married when Grams was 14, and Gramps 20.
  Like I said, another world.

  
  
  
  I read these verses this morning and wrote them down –
  guess God knew I’d be needing them today.
  
  “Out of the depths have I cried unto you…Lord, hear my prayer.
  I wait for you, my soul does wait, and in your word do I find hope.”  Ps.130 
  
      

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